Archive for September, 2014

Your eyes became dull and hazed
Overused razor blades
Tearing, scraping, pulling my skin.
You lost that smooth electricity in your gaze
That caused every fiber of me to stand on the edge of eternity.
Every breath you took became labored, trying to find a reason, any at all, to carry on.
And your reason was harder on me than the pills you swallowed.
I know living is hard to accept when you can wallow in alcohol and self-pity.
So I threw my ring at you to try and break
The circle we had been living in.
A year and a half I had to wait for you to climb back up
From the underground. The journey down is a lot easier than the one back-
It’s a slip and slide
Just down on your knees and
Go.
But after that year and a half, I don’t know if I’m ready yet
To accept the fact that
We both have changed.
Your eyes are no longer dulled but I still see
The reflection of pain staring back at me.
Your forehead is still wrinkled from all the time you spent worrying about
Where you still get your next fix. My bags are darker and heavier than you remember.
The problem is, there is only so long we can rely on the clowns to pass the show
Before we have to make the curtain call.
Sooner rather than later
We have to decide where we go.
Do we hold hands or do we
Walk blind and alone?
You tell me.

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Birds of a feather flock together and
In much the same fashion
Mad people gather.
Clinging to each other
As they try to scrape together a sense of normalcy
While laughing at their abnormalities.
They lie through their Cheshire cat teeth
Sharpened to points so they bleed whenever they smile.
Every word they speak is a lie
And they speak often.
“Pain is best when it comes from within,”
They say, blood dripping down their chins,
“After all, those who smile often have something to hide
And those who smile brightest hold the darkest secrets inside.”